Wednesday, November 29, 2006
10w5d, 90% be damned
90%, HA, I laugh in the face of 90% success rate. Actually not so much laugh as sob hysterically for most of the rest of the day.
Went to my gyno appointment today and he couldn't find the heartbeat with the doppler so he sent me to another department for an ultrasound. She couldn't find any heartbeat either.
Everyone said that things couldn't be better this time. We had an 8-cell, grade 1 embryo. Our HCG numbers were pretty spectacular but still a failure.
I feel like there is just a bare pin point of light entering my brain, everything else is just darkness. My brain feels like a grey fog.
We had begun discussing names and needs last week.
Now it is impossible for us to have a child before I turn 35.