Thursday, January 31, 2008

Favorite things

One of my favorite things about having a child.  When he is a little fussy and fidgety (sp?), I sometimes can pick him up and he just settles right into my shoulder.  He just breathes out and calms down immediately, almost asleep as soon as his head touches my neck.  It is a wonderful feeling, right before the big, wet fart that rumbles against the hand holding his butt.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

6w2d, changes

Sebastian is changing so much this week.  He is now alert for much longer, which is bad for my napping schedule, but cool to watch.

He actually fell asleep on his activity mat today for about 5 minutes, maybe 8 minutes.  This is a huge step.  He hasn't slept on his back yet, until this morning.  He also slept in his car seat, on the floor for almost 2 hours yesterday.  That was amazing.  I didn't get much done since I just kept waiting for him to stir and end the nap.  Every other day had been either a 3 minute nap, or a long nap that he had to be held throughout.

I had my 6 week appointment on Monday and all went well.  It was funny though, I am really bad about any sort of gyno stuff.  I get anxious every time they go to do a pap that I tense up and make it that much more uncomfortable and difficult.  Still it has to be done and apparently had to be done on Monday.  The nurse said that if I thought it would help she would put the baby on my chest during the exam as a distraction.  He was calm so I didn't want to disturb him. 

As soon as she put the speculum in and I tensed up, he started screaming.  He continued crying the entire exam and calmed as soon as the exam was over.  I know he probably had a burp or something that irritated him, but it felt nice that he seemed to sympathize with me.  The nurse commented that he was 'in tune' with my feelings.  Sure, and the fart that was building in his butt.

Still, he is wonderful and beautiful. 

Friday, January 18, 2008

One Month

My beautiful baby boy turned one month old yesterday.  It has been an exciting, exhausting month for everyone. 

I love his mouth, his cheeks, all his chins, and even all the rolls on his neck.  He is such a good boy for mommy.  He isn't the best sleeper yet, but any fussing can be solved by a hug from mommy. 

When he is sleeping he is beautiful and so sweet.  When he is awake he is alert and attentive.  He stares at everything right now. 

Once in a while it almost looks like we are getting a smile, but he often smiles in his sleep.  I would love to know what he dreams about.  (I would guess poop and the boob).

I love this new little being so much.  I fear every minute that something might hurt him.  Every gurgle and cough needs to be checked to make sure he continues breathing.  I worry that I will fail him somehow, yet all I want to do is give him everything he wants.

I will try to update with some pictures later if I can get a nap myself. 

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Although, something cool...

At 5:26am this morning, my son learned to focus on our faces and follow our motion.  It was so incredibly cool.

Noon would have also been cool, but I guess we can't ask for everything.

Longest nap yet

The last several days have been ones of eating on one side, falling asleep for 10 minutes or less, then feeding on the other side.  Repeat in 1 hour or less. 

Finally today he slept for several hours, only as long as he was kept in the Baby Bjorn.  He won't sleep if he is not attached to a human.  He will not sleep on the floor, in the bassinet, anywhere.

And, no, I didn't sleep with him.  That would have been too easy.  I did finally get to eat an entire meal though.

This is going to take a while.

Friday, January 11, 2008


...eventually sleep, right?

For longer than 45 minutes?