I truly did. I really held myself back so as to not have the crushing defeat of loss. Then I got caught up in the fact that we had good numbers and a reason for the last failure.
So now I have been cruising along with all this hope in my heart and realizing that if this is another failure I might be destroyed. The only 'symptom' I have been having is a little blood when I blow my nose. I never have a bloody nose except right after transfer so it correlates with 'pregnancy' symptoms. I have not felt bad, super tired, or gained any weight. In fact I have lost a couple pounds since the retrieval, which doesn't sound like a good sign.
Each of the other times I got pregnant I felt incredibly tired and starving all the time. I don't know when it kicked it but I do remember having it before the pregnancy test so I would expect it to be now or at least soon. When is it too early to POAS?? I am desperately ready to do it now, but I might lose it if I get a negative. I think it might be a little early for any sign, though a stick should be able to give me some info in the next day or so right??
I have the 'test 5 days early' sticks so in theory, I should be able to POAS by tomorrow for a sign. H is counseling me not to test, which I know is the right answer, but I will need to be prepared before I have my blood test. I will need to have some idea of the answer soon or I might make myself insane.
I have 3 sticks on hand, you know, just in case. Maybe I will tempt fate and try one tomorrow.