Wednesday, July 11, 2007


Finally had my 16w1d ultrasound on Monday.  So far everything looks very good.  Our Down's risk went down to 1:3000 (ish).  This time dr was much less 'enthusiastic' about doing an ammio.  He was really pushing for it 2 weeks ago, but this time things looked good enough that the amnio didn't seem necessary.  I was so relieved and H was happy too.  We agreed that if anything looked remotely concerning on the u/s that I would agree to amnio. 
I was clear that terminiation was not an option as long as there was no threat to anyone's life.  I have already had to do 2 terminations and I really didn't believe I could handle another one, especially if the baby was still alive.  At least both others had already 'expired' by the time of the procedure. 
H spent some of the weekend refinishing a 'new' piece of furniture for the nursery. (?)  I don't know how I feel about saying that.  It still feels like if I say too much that it will get taken away from us.  It is just superstition, but still. 
I attached the latest sonogram, though I have no idea how blogger handles pdfs.  I hope it works, otherwise I will have to figure out another solution after work.
The biggest 'concern' the dr had was that I hadn't gained any weight since I have been coming to him 4 weeks ago.  He asked if I was sick or nauseous.  I am not, never had any nausea really.  That concerned him a little but he said that I might be a later bloomer than average.  Well, last night my belly pooked out.  I went from having a little paunch that was mostly just a tire of fat around my waist to a firm round belly.  And I gained 1/2 pound since yesterday morning.
I don't know that I will be able to hide this at work for very much longer.  I was hoping to keep this to myself for a little bit longer but it is starting to get tougher and tougher especially as most of my clothes don't fit anymore.
I guess this secret is going to have to come out sooner or later. I fear that once I start telling everyone that something horrible will happen and that really scares the crap out of me.


Katie said...

So very happy for you and your great ultrasound. I used to get the same, "we are concerned about your lack of weight gain", from my docs. I was just a bit chubby to begin with. In my last pregnancy I gained only 16 pounds, my doc was so upset, my baby was 7 pounds. Lack of weight gain is not horrible, it will happen soon! Congrats again on the ultrasound, can't see the picture, but I am sure it is beautiful. Were they able to tell you the sex of the baby?

Nico said...

I am so glad that this u/s put your collective minds at ease. I told people at work right around 16 weeks, it does get very hard to hide after that. I can only imagine how hard it is to feel secure in this pregnancy, hopefully you do get a little more so with each passing day.

J Fife said...

So happy you have more great news to share!

I can't imagine how hard it must be to just relax and enjoy this pregnancy without fear of jinxing something. Still, I hope you figure out a way to do just that.

Oh, my belly didn't pop until about the point where you are now. Then, it just kept popping and popping (hee.. hee..). Have you told your family yet?

Kate said...

Hope everything is going well! I have been checking your page like a crazy stocker! Thinking of you, and wishing you a wonerful 20 or so more weeks!