I don't know what to call anything. I don't want to do something cute and campy, because that is not me at all. I don't just want a date stamp, though I guess that is helpful.
I just don't know.
Anyway, another tough weekend. I just started work again after an extended period 'between employment'. I didn't work too hard to find a job at first because I wanted to be able to 'relax' and just focus on treatment. Well, that didn't work out as well as I would have hoped, so now I have found a new job that is a contract position. It is with a company I was really hoping to get into and I am also hoping that it will eventually become permanent.
After work on Friday (3rd day!) I am on the phone with my aunt, just chatting away when I feel something wet 'down there'. I figure there is some random something going on, so I hit the bathroom to find RED RED RED in my underwear. I immediately get off the phone, call H and go directly to bed. It was bright red and quick. Not heavy, but each time I wiped there was a real amount in the paper. Like a few mLs each time. I basically stayed in bed freaking out all that night and spoke to the fellow on call.
He was super nice but clear that if this is a miscarriage there is absolutely nothing anyone can do for me. I got up the next morning to find more blood, clumpy and dark. I was supposed to spend the day with my mother but I cancelled, I just couldn't deal with it.
Sunday I still had spotting, but much less. I finally just decided to go to the ER to try to get a US since our place does not do any scans unless they are scheduled. All unscheduled scans must be done in the ER.
Turns out we still have a heart beat, 136(ish), and the fetus is ~7mm, which measures around a day or 2 behind. We were a day behind at the last scan and are now either 1 or 2 days behind. I am not sure exactly if this means we are falling farther behind or if the measurement has that much error built in.
Today is 7w2d, next scan is on 8w2d and I am on the couch for the next week, except for work.