Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Titles suck

I don't know what to call anything.  I don't want to do something cute and campy, because that is not me at all.  I don't just want a date stamp, though I guess that is helpful.

I just don't know.

Anyway, another tough weekend.  I just started work again after an extended period 'between employment'.  I didn't work too hard to find a job at first because I wanted to be able to 'relax' and just focus on treatment.  Well, that didn't work out as well as I would have hoped, so now I have found a new job that is a contract position.  It is with a company I was really hoping to get into and I am also hoping that it will eventually become permanent.

After work on Friday (3rd day!) I am on the phone with my aunt, just chatting away when I feel something wet 'down there'.  I figure there is some random something going on, so I hit the bathroom to find RED RED RED in my underwear.  I immediately get off the phone, call H and go directly to bed.  It was bright red and quick.  Not heavy, but each time I wiped there was a real amount in the paper.  Like a few mLs each time.  I basically stayed in bed freaking out all that night and spoke to the fellow on call.

He was super nice but clear that if this is a miscarriage there is absolutely nothing anyone can do for me.  I got up the next morning to find more blood, clumpy and dark.  I was supposed to spend the day with my mother but I cancelled, I just couldn't deal with it.

Sunday I still had spotting, but much less.  I finally just decided to go to the ER to try to get a US since our place does not do any scans unless they are scheduled.  All unscheduled scans must be done in the ER.

Turns out we still have a heart beat, 136(ish), and the fetus is ~7mm, which measures around a day or 2 behind.  We were a day behind at the last scan and are now either 1 or 2 days behind.  I am not sure exactly if this means we are falling farther behind or if the measurement has that much error built in.

Today is 7w2d, next scan is on 8w2d and I am on the couch for the next week, except for work.

8 comments:

LeggyP said...

I'm sorry for the scare, glad to hear about the HB. FWIW, when I graduated from my RE to my OB, the OB backdated my pregnancy by several days (because we did a natural FET and my cycle dates were early). Anyway, had I been using the earlier "LMP" date, all my scans would have shown babies that were a day or two behind in the early stages (they were all showing "on track" according to the RE's LMP date.)

Nico said...

Oh, Nicole... I am so sorry you're going through this. Glad that your babe is still happy and healthy in there. I hope the next week flies by, and your next u/s is just as reassuring. xox.

Thalia said...

Oh nicole what a tough time you are having. I do hope the bleeding is over now and that things wil get a bit easier.

Nicole said...

Oh Nicole, I am sending lots of positive thoughts your way. And a day or two behind doesn't mean anything. I will be thinking of you til your next scan.

Hopeful Mother said...

Glad to hear that the u/s was good... I wouldn't worry about the measurements at all.

Praying for things to get easier for you...

Anonymous said...

I'm *so* sorry you're going through such an agonizing time. I hope it soon becomes a boringly uneventful happy healthy pregnancy.

Alchemilla

J Fife said...

What a crappy time to be back at work or maybe not - maybe it will prove to be a great distraction. Hoping for super results in a few days. Hang in there...

Alice said...

Sounds like things may really be fine--lots of people do bleed during pregnancy and everything turns out ok. Anxious to hear about the results of your next scan. Take it easy.