Thursday, May 17, 2007

And on the 12th day of bleeding...

my sweetheart gave to me... an ultrasound and a heartbeat.

Now it is actually the fourteenth day of bleeding, but when I started
this post it was the 12th.

I am still bleeding, just a little, but the ultrasound was fine and
the heartbeat/size was on target. We were very relieved about the
whole situation, but I think we were really expecting to be told bad
news that we weren't really responsive to anyone who gave us good news.

Now that it is sinking in, I am starting to get more happy, but I am
still trying to keep things reined in. I don't want the crash of
disappointment to be too enormous to handle.

We even heard a heartbeat on the home doppler this morning at 8w4d,
which apparently is pretty early. The doppler read the beat as less
than at the ultrasound, but it read my heartbeat as 200bpm, so I am
not sure the counting part is all that accurate. It was pretty clear
that it was the heartbeat we were hearing, so I hope it wasn't my
intenstines doing something funny. That would be disappointing.

I am tired most of the time. I basically go to work, come home, eat,
go to sleep. Do not pass go, do not collect 200$. I think partly it
is the pregnancy, but also it is a new job that I am working hard to
impress everyone at, so I think I am a bit overwhelmed and come home
to crash.

And, tomorrow is off to see the MIL. For the whole weekend. I can't
even type the statement without dreading every second. Fun Fun Fun.


Hopeful Mother said...

Oh, I'm so relieved that you got the heartbeat, twice even! Sorry that you're so exhausted, but pregnancy and a new job will do that.

I hope the MIL weekend goes very quickly and without too much drama...

Nico said...

All that bleeding must really be taking a toll on you. It's great that your babe is doing just fine, but I imagine that it's still really terrifying to see blood every time you wipe. Reassuring that you can already use the doppler though, for sure! I hope that the reassurance continues on and on...

And good luck with this weekend!

J Fife said...

So happy that you have a heartbeat. What a wonderful sound! New job, pregnancy... I can only imagine how tired you must be.

Maybe you can just spend the weekend sleeping. That might make it go faster.