It seems like I have nothing to say. I haven't been posting frequently which is sad, because I have so much going on in my brain right now. There has been so much going on, but much of it seems inappropriate to discuss on a public forum.
I have been getting my testing done and so far there are 7 follicles on the right and 3 on the left. None of them seems to be the 'right' size, so I have 2 more days of pin-cushion-hood. Right now it looks like I will take meds until Thursday, hCG on Thursday evening, retrieval Saturday, transfer Tuesday.
I guess this is good, I did have a superstition about not doing a procedure on April 1, so no one can say "Ha it was just a joke!" but I have had superstitions before and those never worked out either. I am just sort of barely believing this is possible. I mean, I must believe it to some degree or I wouldn't be doing it, right? But it seems like the world's longest shot so it doesn't feel like a great idea to go putting all this hope into the process.
As I was leaving testing today, there was a woman and her husband walking in. She was sobbing and I wanted to walk up to her and give her a hug. I know she had an ultrasound or something and didn't get the answer she was hoping for. I wanted to give her a hug in the hallway, but I didn't. I didn't because I know this is a private moment between a husband and wife, but I also regret not going up to her.
This is such a lonely process and I know that it is better when those you invite in are helpful, but I do wish I had let her know that she wasn't completely alone.