Tuesday, December 05, 2006
D&E not D&C
So my D&C became a D&E which uses vacuum instead of cutting. Apparently this is supposed to be a little easier on my body. In respect to the procedure, it seems to have been.
I do love my clinic, the only downside is that they are so busy that we were away from home for over 8 hours yesterday. We left at 10am for a 12:30 procedure which didn't get started until 2:30pm. I guess I was in the room for about 15 minutes total and spent the rest of the afternoon 'recuperating'. I was a bit lightheaded but not really feeling much pain.
Last night was painful and crampy but not so much that pain killers were necessary. Just uncomfortable.
I guess now is just the recovery time. Physically my body isn't bad. I have a little extra weight, but nothing unusual for a cycle. Everything that started to change due to pregnancy has already returned to normal. I just have to deal with the mental baggage now. I feel like this was all a dream, that I never really got pregnant. Like it was all a delusion. There is no proof that there was a child involved at all.
The doctor sent the tissue for testing to determine if there was a chromosomal issue, but asked if we want the tissue returned to us afterward. Both H and I were in quick agreement, NO. Thank you, but no. I can't imagine bringing the tissue home for a 'burial'. That is not the kind of closure that I need in this case.
Again, thanks to everyone for their thoughts and good wishes. So far things seem ok, and H is already talking about the next cycle. I am not ready to discuss that yet, but I guess we will see.