Tuesday, January 10, 2006
It seems that after a failure there is nothing but waiting. There are some (minor) perks, like being able to have a Cosmo at the holiday party, having a glass of wine for New Year's, sushi for lunch, even lox for Sunday brunch.
All those things are nice, but we have a goal. We want a child, and being able to have sushi doesn't exactly seem like a fair trade.
Instead every week I need to go have blood drawn to see that my body isn't freaking out, though why would it? What are we waiting for? I was told we need to wait 2 months from the surgery to try again, but noone will tell me why.
All I really want is information. I don't feel like any of it is complete. I feel like it comes out in little tiny bursts and only if I pull and fight to get it.
I am so damn tired of waiting.