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Saturday, October 18, 2008
10 months old
My little guy turned 10 months old yesterday and went to a costume party with some friends.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
9 Months
Yesterday my little man turned 9 months old. We had his well-child visit and found him to be 50% for weight and head circumference and 75% for height.
He is such a funny little wonderful man. He makes all sorts of silly faces at us, he scrunches up his face and blows raspberries. He growls and attacks me like a little monster. I call him baby-zilla, attacking the tokyo-mama-city, but when I fight back then I become the mom-ra. We are silly together and he laughs out loud whenever you surprise him or he surprises me.
He has been teething for approximately forever. His bottom two teeth are in and one of the top. The other top is still trying to break through. Because he is teething he sometimes bites me while he is nursing. Without fail he bites me and then laughs. He has a big smile and a throaty laugh. Heh heh. It is too funny, though not usually immediately.
He is cruising on everything. He even stood in the middle of the room the other day, not holding on to anything besides his sippy cup, lifted the cup and drank from it. Then he chose to sit down. He didn't fall, he sat. He is starting to scare me. He is so mobile and so fast.
He is loving, especially to other babies. He will cuddle almost any time, though he prefers to be crawling in between the cuddling.
These last few weeks have been better for me. I am starting to get a routine down with work and home that is working. I still don't have any time to work out or lose this 'baby fat' but that will come, I hope.
Next week H and I will have been together for 10 years. It all amazes me.
He is such a funny little wonderful man. He makes all sorts of silly faces at us, he scrunches up his face and blows raspberries. He growls and attacks me like a little monster. I call him baby-zilla, attacking the tokyo-mama-city, but when I fight back then I become the mom-ra. We are silly together and he laughs out loud whenever you surprise him or he surprises me.
He has been teething for approximately forever. His bottom two teeth are in and one of the top. The other top is still trying to break through. Because he is teething he sometimes bites me while he is nursing. Without fail he bites me and then laughs. He has a big smile and a throaty laugh. Heh heh. It is too funny, though not usually immediately.
He is cruising on everything. He even stood in the middle of the room the other day, not holding on to anything besides his sippy cup, lifted the cup and drank from it. Then he chose to sit down. He didn't fall, he sat. He is starting to scare me. He is so mobile and so fast.
He is loving, especially to other babies. He will cuddle almost any time, though he prefers to be crawling in between the cuddling.
These last few weeks have been better for me. I am starting to get a routine down with work and home that is working. I still don't have any time to work out or lose this 'baby fat' but that will come, I hope.
Next week H and I will have been together for 10 years. It all amazes me.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Working mama
I have just been reviewing my life a little today. I realized that since I have gotten settled into work a little bit more that I haven't taken many pictures of the baby. He is changing so much all the time, but my time seems to short with him that stopping for a camera has fallen by the wayside.
I realize that I need to work on balance for my life to work out. I enjoy working, my job is challenging and interesting but I also love my child and don't want to miss out or forget so much. I didn't even post a specific 8 month post. I kept thinking about one since there have been so many changes but then the month just got too far along.
I have also been dealing with a bit of depression. This month has made me so sad. I felt like I have been abandoning my child. Like he is going to forget me, and love the au pair instead. The au pair is wonderful and she loves him. I do not worry about her, just that he will grow confused about our relationship. It has been very difficult, but has finally gotten better. Even H was worried about me and usually he is not very observant about things like that.
I (mostly) know that my fears are groundless but when I am in a bad place I can't turn my mind from them.
I am in a better spot mentally and emotionally this week, so now is when I need to make the changes to keep me on an even keel. I will post next week for a 9 month post. I promise myself and my child.
I realize that I need to work on balance for my life to work out. I enjoy working, my job is challenging and interesting but I also love my child and don't want to miss out or forget so much. I didn't even post a specific 8 month post. I kept thinking about one since there have been so many changes but then the month just got too far along.
I have also been dealing with a bit of depression. This month has made me so sad. I felt like I have been abandoning my child. Like he is going to forget me, and love the au pair instead. The au pair is wonderful and she loves him. I do not worry about her, just that he will grow confused about our relationship. It has been very difficult, but has finally gotten better. Even H was worried about me and usually he is not very observant about things like that.
I (mostly) know that my fears are groundless but when I am in a bad place I can't turn my mind from them.
I am in a better spot mentally and emotionally this week, so now is when I need to make the changes to keep me on an even keel. I will post next week for a 9 month post. I promise myself and my child.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Guess who?!
Was found this morning standing up in his crib? Holding on to the railing, but fully and comfortably standing in his crib? Another hint? He isn't even 8 months old yet.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
More things we eat
Sweet potato
Salmon
Haddock
Manioc? (Fried Yuca?) Some kind of brazilian root vegetable that is usually fried.
Salmon
Haddock
Manioc? (Fried Yuca?) Some kind of brazilian root vegetable that is usually fried.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Things we eat!
I am going to start a list of the things my little man will eat. I want to save this list for when he is 2 and refuses to eat anything. These are all things he has eaten from our plates, usually with a lot of screaming if we put the fork in our own mouths.
chicken
black beans
kidney bean
rice
green beans
red peppers
green peppers
hamburger
steak
corn
sushi (started with eel, then an entire california roll, then salmon)
lamb
potatoes
belgian waffle with chocolate sauce/vanilla sauce, whip cream and ice cream
blueberry pancakes
ice cream
iced coffee (decaf)
iced tea
brownies
chocolate cake
lemon slices
orange slices
limes slices
seriously, we haven't found anything he doesn't want to eat. The only time he complains is if it doesn't come off my plate. If I try to give him something from a baby food jar he whines, but if I put the baby food over grilled chicken he is totally happy. If I think of anything else, I will update this list.
chicken
black beans
kidney bean
rice
green beans
red peppers
green peppers
hamburger
steak
corn
sushi (started with eel, then an entire california roll, then salmon)
lamb
potatoes
belgian waffle with chocolate sauce/vanilla sauce, whip cream and ice cream
blueberry pancakes
ice cream
iced coffee (decaf)
iced tea
brownies
chocolate cake
lemon slices
orange slices
limes slices
seriously, we haven't found anything he doesn't want to eat. The only time he complains is if it doesn't come off my plate. If I try to give him something from a baby food jar he whines, but if I put the baby food over grilled chicken he is totally happy. If I think of anything else, I will update this list.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
7 months
Today, my handsome little man, you are seven months old.
This month has been a month of transitions. You have started to change from a little baby to a little boy. You have gotten so big and so many of the things you did for the first 6 months are fading away.
We used to be able to put you down and know that you would be in the same spot when we returned. Now you roll and crawl everywhere.
We used to put you in your crib on your belly to sleep and find you in the same place in the morning. Now when we come in you are sitting straight up crying to be picked up.
Mama has gone back to work, and you have a new au pair. She is wonderful and loves you so very much. This week has been tough for everyone with me transitioning to full time. You wouldn't take your naps for the au pair, you seemed fine and happy with her, but as soon as I come home you start crying and hollering.
You want to do nothing but nurse when I am home, and you are not sleeping well in the night either. I hope this is all due to the change of routine and that you will settle back into your normal happy routine.
Right around 6 months you started sleeping through the night on occasion. Even if you didn't sleep through the night, you only woke once or twice. This week you have been waking up so often, or just not going back to sleep after nursing. You have been nursing almost constantly through the night for the last several days.
I hope the nursing will comfort you and reassure you that mama loves you and she isn't leaving you. I do love you, I will always come back. I miss you every moment while I am at work.
Love you forever,
Mama
This month has been a month of transitions. You have started to change from a little baby to a little boy. You have gotten so big and so many of the things you did for the first 6 months are fading away.
We used to be able to put you down and know that you would be in the same spot when we returned. Now you roll and crawl everywhere.
We used to put you in your crib on your belly to sleep and find you in the same place in the morning. Now when we come in you are sitting straight up crying to be picked up.
Mama has gone back to work, and you have a new au pair. She is wonderful and loves you so very much. This week has been tough for everyone with me transitioning to full time. You wouldn't take your naps for the au pair, you seemed fine and happy with her, but as soon as I come home you start crying and hollering.
You want to do nothing but nurse when I am home, and you are not sleeping well in the night either. I hope this is all due to the change of routine and that you will settle back into your normal happy routine.
Right around 6 months you started sleeping through the night on occasion. Even if you didn't sleep through the night, you only woke once or twice. This week you have been waking up so often, or just not going back to sleep after nursing. You have been nursing almost constantly through the night for the last several days.
I hope the nursing will comfort you and reassure you that mama loves you and she isn't leaving you. I do love you, I will always come back. I miss you every moment while I am at work.
Love you forever,
Mama
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Mother of the Year AND Hostess of the Year
Well this weekend I won all sorts of awards. I had a cookout with friends and family on the fourth. It was fun but a bit stressful. We ended up having 30 or 40 people and fireworks! There might have been about 50 lbs of meat, and pretty much all of it was consumed.
Not only did we have friends over we had them STAY over. The evening of the 4th my house had 8 adults and 3 children. These 8 adults include my mother in law and a new au pair who has know been in our house for 4 days.
That night, apparently, I slept through Sebastian crying. I wake up every night yet that one night, when I have everyone I know sleeping in my house, I sleep through my son's crying.
There were 2 mothers with sub-6 year olds, and they both kept coming up the stairs to check and then rethinking it. They were afraid I was letting him cry it out, and they would be undermining my authority but instead we all just let him cry.
Apparently he cried for 10 minutes or so then put himself back to sleep until the morning.
Yep, mom of the year AND hostess of the year. I rock!!
Not only did we have friends over we had them STAY over. The evening of the 4th my house had 8 adults and 3 children. These 8 adults include my mother in law and a new au pair who has know been in our house for 4 days.
That night, apparently, I slept through Sebastian crying. I wake up every night yet that one night, when I have everyone I know sleeping in my house, I sleep through my son's crying.
There were 2 mothers with sub-6 year olds, and they both kept coming up the stairs to check and then rethinking it. They were afraid I was letting him cry it out, and they would be undermining my authority but instead we all just let him cry.
Apparently he cried for 10 minutes or so then put himself back to sleep until the morning.
Yep, mom of the year AND hostess of the year. I rock!!
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
6 1/2 months
I have been trying to write a six month post for almost 2 weeks now. There is so much I want to say and so much I am having trouble with.
For the few days before my little man turned 6 months old, he was sleeping through the night, or mostly through the night. It was a nice transition and very welcome. Then he got his vaccinations and stopped. He went back to waking up every few hours. It was difficult. I don't know if my diet wasn't sufficient for him to feel full or if there was another transition going on that was interrupting his sleep.
Either way life was a bit tough. Napping was intermittent and irregular. I was sleeping almost every time the baby was. It was nice in some ways, and difficult in others.
Also, at the same time, I got hurt. I had an accident about 10 years ago that made me very nervous about physical activity. It was somewhat serious, but could have been much much much worse. I have finally gotten back into physical activity with pressure from a friend. I had been taking karate with her for about a month when I got kicked.
It was incredibly painful and was during practice. We weren't sparring, I was standing still while another student practiced a move. When he kicked me in the arm the pain was blinding. Within 24 hours I had an enormous bruise that went all the way down the inside of my arm.
From my previous accident I have nerve damage in that arm, so I am still having pain flares. Almost immediately my mind began coursing through the options and issues. If I have to go to the hospital, what signs to look for if something goes wrong, where do I take the baby if I need to go to the hospital, what happens to the baby if a blood clot goes to my lung.
It was debilitating and horrible. I was sunk into despair and fear for more than a week. I have begun to get myself under control, but it has not been fun nor easy. The worst thing is that the baby has been so good for these 2 weeks. He has begun sitting up and crawling. His crawling is not graceful yet, but he get pretty much get anywhere he wants to go.
He has been changing and growing at such an amazing rate and I want to enjoy it. He is so funny and new every day, while I sit in anxiety about leaving the house or anything that might cause me to get hurt again. My fear is that if I get hurt, it will be a devastating hurt, like a loss of limb or complete incapacitation. Things are getting better, and most days I think things are under control and then there will be a wash of anxiety that flows through my mind that I feel will drown me.
Sebastian is beautiful, wonderful and becoming such a chubby little man. Me, on the other hand? I am a precariously balanced emotional house of cards. Any little disturbance could bring the whole thing down.
For the few days before my little man turned 6 months old, he was sleeping through the night, or mostly through the night. It was a nice transition and very welcome. Then he got his vaccinations and stopped. He went back to waking up every few hours. It was difficult. I don't know if my diet wasn't sufficient for him to feel full or if there was another transition going on that was interrupting his sleep.
Either way life was a bit tough. Napping was intermittent and irregular. I was sleeping almost every time the baby was. It was nice in some ways, and difficult in others.
Also, at the same time, I got hurt. I had an accident about 10 years ago that made me very nervous about physical activity. It was somewhat serious, but could have been much much much worse. I have finally gotten back into physical activity with pressure from a friend. I had been taking karate with her for about a month when I got kicked.
It was incredibly painful and was during practice. We weren't sparring, I was standing still while another student practiced a move. When he kicked me in the arm the pain was blinding. Within 24 hours I had an enormous bruise that went all the way down the inside of my arm.
From my previous accident I have nerve damage in that arm, so I am still having pain flares. Almost immediately my mind began coursing through the options and issues. If I have to go to the hospital, what signs to look for if something goes wrong, where do I take the baby if I need to go to the hospital, what happens to the baby if a blood clot goes to my lung.
It was debilitating and horrible. I was sunk into despair and fear for more than a week. I have begun to get myself under control, but it has not been fun nor easy. The worst thing is that the baby has been so good for these 2 weeks. He has begun sitting up and crawling. His crawling is not graceful yet, but he get pretty much get anywhere he wants to go.
He has been changing and growing at such an amazing rate and I want to enjoy it. He is so funny and new every day, while I sit in anxiety about leaving the house or anything that might cause me to get hurt again. My fear is that if I get hurt, it will be a devastating hurt, like a loss of limb or complete incapacitation. Things are getting better, and most days I think things are under control and then there will be a wash of anxiety that flows through my mind that I feel will drown me.
Sebastian is beautiful, wonderful and becoming such a chubby little man. Me, on the other hand? I am a precariously balanced emotional house of cards. Any little disturbance could bring the whole thing down.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Sleep, Glorious Sleep
Wow, our very first real Sleep-through-the-night. Sebastian went down at around 7:30 last night and slept till 7am. It was wonderful. We did get up once or twice to check on him but mostly there was sleeping on all sides.
The only other time he really slept through was after vaccinations, which I don't really count.
How do you make that happen again?? Can you imagine, 2 nights of sleep!?! In a row?!? Or even within a week of each other!?! Seriously, are we talking about nirvana here?
The only other time he really slept through was after vaccinations, which I don't really count.
How do you make that happen again?? Can you imagine, 2 nights of sleep!?! In a row?!? Or even within a week of each other!?! Seriously, are we talking about nirvana here?
Friday, June 06, 2008
Sleeping
Apparently it isn't sleep that begets sleep. Apparently it is a whole day of skipped naps.
Last night the baby slept from 7:30pm to 4:30am. It would have been wonderful had we not woken up at 2am waiting for him to start crying. Since I was missing my own oxytocin hit, I was awake until 3:30am and then finally fell asleep again.
Then an hour later, the baby remembered us.
Last night the baby slept from 7:30pm to 4:30am. It would have been wonderful had we not woken up at 2am waiting for him to start crying. Since I was missing my own oxytocin hit, I was awake until 3:30am and then finally fell asleep again.
Then an hour later, the baby remembered us.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Mama
Today, for the first time, Sebastian said Mama.
H was there, he was holding the baby when Sebastian looked at me and said Mama. It was so cute, exciting and sweet. I know that he probably doesn't understand that that is my name. I know that he meant it to get onto the boob, but still it was clear, it was directed at me and it was wonderful.
Love you little one.
H was there, he was holding the baby when Sebastian looked at me and said Mama. It was so cute, exciting and sweet. I know that he probably doesn't understand that that is my name. I know that he meant it to get onto the boob, but still it was clear, it was directed at me and it was wonderful.
Love you little one.
Monday, May 26, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
5 Months
Sebastian
You turned 5 months old this weekend. We spent the day in the city with Daddy and had a wonderful time. You are getting so funny. You giggle all the time and always smile when you wake up for the day.
You are getting so dexterous with your hands. You can pick up a pacifier and place it in your mouth, though not always the correct direction.
I didn't realize how much I would love you. Some days I look at your chubby little face and feel so overwhelmed. All I want to do is tickle your belly and hear that belly laugh. Your smiles and giggles are the most amazing part of my day.
I am going back to work. I need to go to work, but it is killing me that I will have to leave you. I know it is better for me to work, but that doesn't mean I am not going to miss you terribly. We have found an incredible au pair for you though and I think you are going to love her. I just don't want you to love her more than you love me.
You are sleeping now, and have been sleepy all day. The last several days have been very overwhelming for you. We have seen lots of friends and stayed out well past your bedtime. Even though I know you need your sleep, all I want to do it pick you up and hold you. I just want to hug you and cuddle you.
Today was the real decision to go back to work. I won't be going back for a few more weeks, but still the actual decision has been put in place. If I don't go back now I will really hurt myself in ever getting another job.
I took the cutest video of you today. You were asking for your mobile and when it was turned on you were so excited. I will add the video when I download it. Your hands and feet started flailing about with the music. Your mobiles make you so happy. I didn't expect you to enjoy them, but you do.
You are a wonderful, sweet, beautiful baby and mommy loves you very much.
Love you forever,
Mommy
You turned 5 months old this weekend. We spent the day in the city with Daddy and had a wonderful time. You are getting so funny. You giggle all the time and always smile when you wake up for the day.
You are getting so dexterous with your hands. You can pick up a pacifier and place it in your mouth, though not always the correct direction.
I didn't realize how much I would love you. Some days I look at your chubby little face and feel so overwhelmed. All I want to do is tickle your belly and hear that belly laugh. Your smiles and giggles are the most amazing part of my day.
I am going back to work. I need to go to work, but it is killing me that I will have to leave you. I know it is better for me to work, but that doesn't mean I am not going to miss you terribly. We have found an incredible au pair for you though and I think you are going to love her. I just don't want you to love her more than you love me.
You are sleeping now, and have been sleepy all day. The last several days have been very overwhelming for you. We have seen lots of friends and stayed out well past your bedtime. Even though I know you need your sleep, all I want to do it pick you up and hold you. I just want to hug you and cuddle you.
Today was the real decision to go back to work. I won't be going back for a few more weeks, but still the actual decision has been put in place. If I don't go back now I will really hurt myself in ever getting another job.
I took the cutest video of you today. You were asking for your mobile and when it was turned on you were so excited. I will add the video when I download it. Your hands and feet started flailing about with the music. Your mobiles make you so happy. I didn't expect you to enjoy them, but you do.
You are a wonderful, sweet, beautiful baby and mommy loves you very much.
Love you forever,
Mommy
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Mother's Day
My very first mother's day was, a bit anticlimactic.
It was a nice calm day and the baby behaved beautifully, so that was good.
A good friend bought me flowers and a card specific for 'first mom's day'. That was incredibly thoughtful.
My mom got me a gift certificate to a store I don't really shop at that is closer to her house than mine. And my sister never called at all.
I told my friend that I was a little disappointed in my mother. Her response was that no one even mentioned her first mother's day. Not her mother, father, HUSBAND! She thought I should be grateful that it was noted at all.
And now I am.
It was a nice calm day and the baby behaved beautifully, so that was good.
A good friend bought me flowers and a card specific for 'first mom's day'. That was incredibly thoughtful.
My mom got me a gift certificate to a store I don't really shop at that is closer to her house than mine. And my sister never called at all.
I told my friend that I was a little disappointed in my mother. Her response was that no one even mentioned her first mother's day. Not her mother, father, HUSBAND! She thought I should be grateful that it was noted at all.
And now I am.
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
4 and 1/3 months
Honey-pie, pumpkin-pie, love-nugget, sweetness,
I am late for this months posting. This months has been exciting and wonderful and a little busy.
We had to go to a funeral for a friend's mother and met some wonderful people. We took care of a 2 year old for a couple of days while her parents thought they would be having her brother. It is now a week later and still no baby brother.
You have been so incredible this month. You have started to pay attention to the book when we read. You look at the pictures. You only sit still for about 3 minutes but it is beautiful. You are rolling around and can turn over, almost on demand. You choose not to use your arms to turn over, instead you scooch your feet under your butt until it gets high enough to pull you over. It is so funny.
Your 4-month appointment has you at 26 inches long (85%ile), 15lbs (55%) and 42 cm head circumference (50%).
You have learned to scream, really using those lungs, to let me know how you really feel about having to wait an extra 6 minutes to eat. You are displeased. I get that.
You are a good napper now, which I never expected.
You are starting rice cereal and you are sucking it down. You will take 3 tablespoons of cereal with 3-5 ounces of milk and you are still looking for the spoon.
I was a little sad when we started the feeding process. You really love it and I am happy about that, but I thought we would just be breastfeeding for a while longer. You still nurse, but you need me a little less. That feels a little painful. I knew it would happen but I expected it around college, not at 4 months. You are napping now, and I miss you so much.
I am thinking about going back to work. My boss and I spoke this week and if I want to go back I need to make the decision soon. I do want to work, but I don't want to leave you. I feel like I am a little bit of a failure if I am not here with you, and also if I do not work and create something. I don't know what I should do, I don't want to miss anything but I realize I can't have everything.
You smile and laugh everytime you see daddy which he loves. You look at him like he is wonderful and it is perfect to see.
Love you forever,
mama
I am late for this months posting. This months has been exciting and wonderful and a little busy.
We had to go to a funeral for a friend's mother and met some wonderful people. We took care of a 2 year old for a couple of days while her parents thought they would be having her brother. It is now a week later and still no baby brother.
You have been so incredible this month. You have started to pay attention to the book when we read. You look at the pictures. You only sit still for about 3 minutes but it is beautiful. You are rolling around and can turn over, almost on demand. You choose not to use your arms to turn over, instead you scooch your feet under your butt until it gets high enough to pull you over. It is so funny.
Your 4-month appointment has you at 26 inches long (85%ile), 15lbs (55%) and 42 cm head circumference (50%).
You have learned to scream, really using those lungs, to let me know how you really feel about having to wait an extra 6 minutes to eat. You are displeased. I get that.
You are a good napper now, which I never expected.
You are starting rice cereal and you are sucking it down. You will take 3 tablespoons of cereal with 3-5 ounces of milk and you are still looking for the spoon.
I was a little sad when we started the feeding process. You really love it and I am happy about that, but I thought we would just be breastfeeding for a while longer. You still nurse, but you need me a little less. That feels a little painful. I knew it would happen but I expected it around college, not at 4 months. You are napping now, and I miss you so much.
I am thinking about going back to work. My boss and I spoke this week and if I want to go back I need to make the decision soon. I do want to work, but I don't want to leave you. I feel like I am a little bit of a failure if I am not here with you, and also if I do not work and create something. I don't know what I should do, I don't want to miss anything but I realize I can't have everything.
You smile and laugh everytime you see daddy which he loves. You look at him like he is wonderful and it is perfect to see.
Love you forever,
mama
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Rolling machine!!
Oh my!! Now Sebastian can roll over in both directions from his belly! And he has once gone from back to belly once!
I am so amazingly excited. He has gone from belly to back 9 times in 24 hours. It seems like 3 of them were to the left and the rest to the right.
I am so amazingly excited. He has gone from belly to back 9 times in 24 hours. It seems like 3 of them were to the left and the rest to the right.
Monday, April 07, 2008
3 and 2/3 months?
Guess what my little man did today!! He rolled over from his belly to his back. All by himself. Then I put him back to try to video it for daddy and that is where the screaming began.
Oh well, it was so cool though.
Oh well, it was so cool though.
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